Isn't it amazing how people, ideas, inspirations, and things come back from your past to you when you least expect them to but somehow always exactly when you need them? Feeling tired from and somewhat discouraged about a great many things, including the last surgery, this video (which I had not seen before today) appeared … Continue reading Beauty in Brokenness
I've had so many kind remarks and messages from all over the world hoping to hear good things about the success of last night's surgery that I felt like it was important to reach out sooner rather than later. I'm so close to my surgeon after going through everything I've gone through with him and … Continue reading Voting for Badass: a Post-Surgical Update
Today's sweater weather picture is brought to you by... emergency surgery and icy cold pre-op! My hand to God, I was whistling "Hi Ho" on the way out the door. So at least I've got that going for me, which is nice. Today is to be the 9th surgery on (what remains of) my left … Continue reading Here I Go Again
Today was another beautiful, rainy, sweater weather day and perfect for a drive in the mountains. Fortunately for me, I had an appointment an hour and a half from home and I live at the foot of the Rockies. This is what driving looks like for me: elevated and cushioned stump in a plaid sock … Continue reading Autumn Drive
I feel the same way, wrapped in my trench coat, umbrella in hand, rain boots on toes.
I think I like rain, a simple shower… I love the feeling I get as I hold my umbrella listening to the drops on the tent I have inverted over my head. Coat collar up and tucked into a scarf I tie around my neck to provide a little extra warmth, a little extra protection from the coldness of the rain.
It is a simple delight I take in a quiet, cool rainy day that I want to have with me all the time. I want to find that feeling and hold onto it for the days that do not offer soft rain and my heart feels like it will break. I want to feel secure like I do with that scarf tied up around my coat collar even when it is not there. I am filled with anxiety instead of security. Sadness instead of joy. Empty without delight. There will be no cool rain today.
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Having grown up in the Rocky Mountains, I distinctly remember the culture shock I experienced when I first moved to the south. It was November when I drove through a blizzard toward my new home 11 years ago and when I drove into Georgia a few days later the palm trees were swaying in the … Continue reading Sweater Weather
One of the more enlightening aspects of being in a wheelchair for any amount of time is handling the lack of situational awareness by a vast portion of the legged populace, as I was reminded yesterday when I narrowly avoided becoming roadkill. What I am saying, though, also applies to anyone with any sort of … Continue reading Speed Bumps
Imagine a little green tree frog fell into a well. Obviously it could survive in the cold, wet, blackness of the well but still the little guy wanted to be in the sunlight and breezes again in its favorite tree. Hop, hop, hop it went, bouncing from one rocky ledge to another and slowly making … Continue reading Frog in a Well
I know I've mentioned at some point that I have a chest port or, more accurately, a tunneled subclavian PICC line that places a catheter right next to the heart. This thing: This bit of medical equipment has been dangling there since mid-July, getting caught on clothing and blankets, being smooshed into my skin, poking, … Continue reading The End is Near-ish